If you wear beautiful shoes they will take you to beautiful places

On days where I don’t feel 100% I have a pair of red Tuk shoes just for that. They aren’t much in way of design but they are comfy, bright and there is a small decorative sword on them. Who wouldn’t want a pair of shoes that had swords?

Not only do my shoes bring me much pleasure but when I wear them everyone aroudn me seems to get a little excited too. Yesterday there were people in the bus who complimented them, my neighbour, 3 bus drivers and well, lots of smiles.

Beautiful shoes are said to take you beautiful places but sometimes they bring beauty to the place where you find yourself.

This wekeend is Comicon in Ottawa and you know what ladies, to all those going, show me your beautiful shoes. Comfy, uncomfortable and having to switch during the day, no matter. Bring beauty to your weekend. Maybe there will even be mothers taking out their beautiful shoes for their day or receiving them as gifts…

Happy Weekend!

Fun in the sun, not.

Ok, I know I will be getting a backlash of “oh my God, it’s gorgeous out!” Or “you’re crazy” but I really like the warmth that arrived with spring just not the sun.
I am fair skinned and cycling home from work after having slathered sunscreen on and still getting a burn irritates me. It’s only May and I am burning already.
I think once I am home all the time, I will be as fair as snow white, enjoying sun early in the morning or late in the afternoon only. When it won’t kill me.
That is all for today, I have to get back to work. Ciao xxoxx

Vortex of feelings

There are things in this world that I would love to do, people I would love to meet, and sensations I want to experience. Sadly, I need to pick and choose between what I want now and what will be best later on. (Very sadly, I am sorry Nathan… *insert very long drawn out melodramatic sigh with twinge of sadness and despair*

I have lately been very able to deal with certain triggers that have yet to disappear completely and find that the cycling in the morning makes up part of certain therapeutic rituals I have during the day. Having said this, I really do not want to continue at a day job where I feel stifled and chained down. However pleasant, and kind the people around me, if there is no fulfillment in what you do, no matter how small, it may not be worth your doing it.

I have had friends argue that you do things no matter what, and I do them. My not enjoying them is the only thing. When it is fashion, art, dance, and even physical exertion, I have no trouble pushing through the tough bits. Mundane day to day jobs… Not a fan. There is something missing for me. (also the crazy days working and finishing school aren’t helping)

Between therapy, getting sick and so many other things, this course has drawn out much longer than expected and hangs over me. I don’t want to make excuses, but I want to express the looming feeling I have at completing all this work and moving on finally! Having a plan at the end of my studies helps but doesn’t completely alleviate all the “crazies” I feel. Sometimes I am high and there are lows. Every now and again, there are angry bursts that can’t be explained or controlled.

I am very glad that I have had the wonderful opportunity to have met several people who, like me, want to see, do, and experience everything. There is no limit to their imaginations and creativity. With my blogging I have found an outlet still new to me and hope my writing is able to convey all that I want it to. Hopefully, soon, I will have some images, drawings and more interesting things to say but today, this is it.

Take care my lovelies and ciao!

The Lost Squirrel

Yesterday was quite the day with my feeling under the weather and today continued with my fighting a cold. Taking extra vitamin C, drinking lots of fluid and even sleeping a little more than I usually do. However, overall I was emotionally feeling more calm and relaxed than I have in a long time.

Having downloaded some of my fav songs, put them on my phone and had a good day at work. Afterwards, it was another story. I went to the grocery store and they made me leave my backpack at the front entrance and there were many rude, irritated, and overall icky people walking around. I got what I needed and left as soon as I could because well, it was ruining my great attitude. On the way out, there was a little fur ball in the middle of the alley behind the stores and I decided to shoo it away into the grass again. It was a baby squirrel only about 2 months old. I kept trying to push it away and it wouldn’t go. Eventually it climbed up my leg, my back and hid in my hair. It wouldn’t leave.

I decided since I had previously helped take care of them (a couple of older friends had rescued some and their mom cared for them, I used to help) I remember a little bit and have requested help from J to keep this little one healthy. He had a restful night in the cat carrier that I converted into a home for him and is happy making his little nest. Debating letting him go now, somewhere safer than out here. It is a boy so if anyone has any ideas for names, let me know

Well, off to do more school work and stop dilly dallying.

Wet and wild

Now, firstly, all of you get your minds out of the gutter! I mean the weather!
Most of you know about my cycling to work but this was the first time I went home in the rain. It was lovely. The path I take goes along the river the whole way, starting at North River rd. all the way to Tunney’s. The river this afternoon was choppy and rough and you could smell the wet earth. There were geese everywhere and no one on the path. At first, there seemed to be no other women going home in the rain but after about 15 minutes there were a few, I really thought I was alone for a bit.
When I got behind the war museum it really started coming down and the water looked even more amazing, I barely noticed I was wet through and through. It was just so relaxing to go through the rain. I wanted to take off my helmet and let my hair down in the rain but I knew a certain someone would be angry at me so the helmet stayed on.
Ottawa isn’t my favourite city but living here is nice when the weather is good and you can get outside and be near the river. I still have trouble with the steep hill near the locks but soon I will be able to get up without having to walk up.

Now that I am home, having a cup of tea, getting laundry and homework done. It actually is kind of nice to have a relaxing night.
Hope you all listen to a little jazz on this cool, rainy, romantic night. Feel free to ask suggestions
- BiBi

Kicking Tuesday

When you think the hot mess from Monday is gone and that you have some reprieve from the chaos, Tuesday kicks you where it’s uncomfortable.

Last night, I took quick photos, didn’t eat dinner, worked on bow ties, filed paperwork, called places that needed calling back and finally hit the hay at 11pm. I was bushed. Over the last week, cycling to work has become more and more difficult and easy at the same time. My body is adapting to all the hills and exhaust fumes but it is also very tired in the morning and asks me “Dude, really?” to which my reply is normally “Yeah, seriously, I know…”

This afternoon I found myself needing caffeine (which I have stopped taking normally but really needed something) and wow, what a reaction. It was like a high.  Cycling home took less time, stopped at the grocery store, walked up the stairs with bike, backpack and groceries in hand, without losing any energy. However, there was a huge pit in my stomach!

Tuesday always leaves a little to be desired and I have kept on schedule with my projects. Now it’s a little one on one with Cecil and then bed.

Goodnight lovelies! Hope you are holding up a little better than I.

BiBi

Hot Mess Mondy pt II

Alright, today was more of a hot mess than expected. On my way home I stopped at the store to pick up more spray paint to give my heads an extra coat. Therefore, it took me a little longer to get home and I took some quickie photos of my most recent creations to show everyone the prototypes

Even uploading the photos has been trouble… Good grief. I think this is the end for me! I have some bow ties to make for tomorrow.

Take care everyone!